Oldest Son

Dear Oldest Son,

This week we celebrated the day you made me a mom – and I honestly can’t remember who I was before you came into my world. So much of my identity now is wrapped up in caring for you and your brother that I barely remember the time that you weren’t in my life. Was there a time in my life that wasn’t filled with chocolate milk and PBS Kids and Legos? I guess there had to be, but I really don’t remember it.

newborn_oldest

Not that I am complaining. You made our family complete in a way that I could never explain and certainly never expected. You were the baby we tried for, hoped for, and prayed for every day. And you haven’t disappointed, even on your worst days. And man, has the past year brought some worst days! In the past 12 months, my perfectly behaved toddler grew into a smart-mouthed, defiant preschooler. That has certainly made being your mom and your preschool teacher challenging. But every time I am ready to stick you out on the front porch with a “free to good home” sign, you flash me that killer smile and I can’t help but hug you. Your laugh and your smile are contagious.

Don’t ever be afraid to be who you are. Your love of music, your compassion for people, your gentleness with babies and animals – those are all the things about you that are special, and I hope you never give those things up. Real men aren’t afraid to be loving and tender; you’ve got a great role model for that in your father. Keep praying and learning your Bible verses; these are two habits that will benefit you for the rest of your life. I know you get discouraged when things get hard, but don’t give up. You can do it. Your dad and I believe in you. And your little brother is watching. Take good care of him, and show him the right thing to do. He looks up to you so much and he wants to be just like you.

Most of all, little man, I want you to know that I will never stop loving you. Even when I am grumpy, even when you make me mad, even when I tell you no – I always love you, and I always will. I may not always agree with the choices you make, but I will never, ever stop loving you. Your daddy and I are proud of you, and we look forward to seeing the man that you will become.

Love,

Mommy

oldest_son_now

Four Years Old

Favorite Movie: Curious George

Favorite Television Show: Phineas and Ferb

Favorite Song: “The Wise Man Built His House Upon the Rock”

Favorite Color: Blue

Favorite Food: Cereal

Best Friend: Cole

When I grow up, I want to be a: Farmer